thought n.1 - Key of Life

My whole body gave up few days ago. I needed rest. I am used to stretching myself a lot before I find the limit. Or it finds me.

But with every new experience I earn more knowledge, more praxis. It’s like little version of the big life mirroring itself in it’s function. 

My head gets foggy as I approach my monthly scarlet yard sale. I can only recollect what happened in the last weeks. It was a lot and I feel like the whole world is falling down and I with it. But that’s the hormones that lead the way to confusion and periodic suffering. We get used to it, still it surprises us. At least me. 

It’s easy to get used to feeling good, then you don’t know from which place the next hit is going to come. Throughout the years I worked on my perception hard enough to mostly stop expecting them but not exempting. It’s indeed very helpful not to expect hits. If you get to a certain level of raw honesty with yourself, it gets much difficult to suffer any personal damage from living. Which is a good thing. People can confuse it with coldheartedness. I call it objectivity. People also confuse it with not taking responsibility, which I will admit took big part in many of the years of my life, but this is mainly knowing where your responsibility ends and where others starts. Were not the same kind of people and we shouldn’t be living the same lives. That’s why there are tastes, preferences, personalities. I`ve encountered people who thought that whoever doesn’t share their world view, is either lost or confused and maybe will find out eventually. Thinking they have the key (or at least partially) to the way of living, therefore being superior. I am not a proud hopefully past member of that group. Nothing makes you more inferior than an illusion of superiority.

Talking about the key of life - the thought itself is dulling the right edges of whatever key you yourself hold.